Monday, July 31, 2006

4 Months

Dear Zoe,

Oh my gosh, you're four months old. Your dad and I just can't get over how much you've grown and changed, and how fast! I know, it's like a broken record: "The time goes so quickly!" But, darling, it does.

Hey!  You're upside-down!


Last Wednesday--the day before your fourth-month birthday--I set you in your exersaucer to play. Like every time before, you put your feet down but couldn't seem to keep from leaning forward in the seat. Your arms reached out, but you didn't know what to do with them; they were simply wet noodles that occasionally stuck to something nearby. On Thursday, when I set you in again, all of a sudden you had this strength. You were able to actually play with the toys and use your arms to balance yourself upright! Literally overnight something clicked in you. Now, you can really bounce in that thing and spin yourself around.

Going for the toes


You have discovered the rest of your body in a way that puts your father and I in total stitches. Your feet are like secondary hands to you, now. Not only do you grab them with your hands, but you use your toes to curl around things you want. You even enjoy grabbing my arm between your feet when I change your diaper. Dad and Momma's little monkey! I swore that I would not buy you anything pink (everyone else has given you plenty!), but I had to get the pink outfits at Old Navy for you because of the monkeys on them. Your father even speculated that the little dimple you have at the top of your bottom is where your prehensile tail failed to grow.

Given your joy for all things edible, it is no wonder that mealtime is the highlight of your day. From the moment you had a bite of my mango sorbet, you have gobbled down everything I set in front of you. We've now tasted rice cereal, bananas, avocados, sweet potatoes, and nectarines. All delicious, all gone in seconds flat. This evening, when you'd finished your cereal and I got up to rinse the bowl, your dad caught this look of . . . grief in your eyes. Where was I going with your food? But, of course Ms. Chunkalicious, you still must have your milk every couple of hours as well. We would not want you to waste away!

'Sup, Momma?


Our greatest sorrow this month--having to say goodbye to Nala--went hand-in-hand with one of our greatest joys. You are this active, alert, giggling, smiling, rolly-poly little girl. We can't set you down but five seconds later you've rolled over onto your tummy. You're still not sure what to do once you get there so the fuss starts. We can't help but laugh. I said it when you were only a newborn and it hasn't changed: you are so eager to GO, that it frustrates you when you can't quite do it. Your naps have been interrupted lately because, darn it, "I'm on my tummy again! Come fix it!" Don't worry, Zoe-baby. In just the past few days you've become an expert at propping yourself up on your elbows. So see? You'll be off and running in no time.

But, most of all, I am enthralled at the social being you've become. You are a total flirt with everyone who meets you (a coy smile and then, quick!, tuck your head into my shoulder). And you seem truly joyful when you see your dad and I. My favorite time is when we're lying in bed in the morning, and you start to wake up. Your eyes open and you look around sleepily until you see me, when a slow smile spreads across your face. Today I think you finally realized that you can make me laugh. You were lying on your back in your gym, kicking a rattle, when you grabbed onto it with your monkey toes. I, of course, laughed out loud. You leaned your head back, looked at me, and giggled. Then, eyes on me the whole time, you began kicking your legs like crazy. And, every time I laughed, you smiled and kicked more.

Zoe Lu Who


It's going to be so difficult to leave you during the week and go back to work next Monday. I am so blessed to have had these four whole months (and a little more) to spend with you. I am going to miss our sleepy mornings (who knew--those dreams became a reality!), our babbling conversations (you are more expressive than I could have imagined at four months), and simply playing. Our time together so far has been such a roller coaster, hasn't it? Thank you for teaching me that one twinkling smile is the best reward for the hardest thing I've ever learned to do.

Love Always,
Momma

In Memoriam

Princess Pooch

We said goodbye to our fur baby, Nala, Saturday evening. We had our best hopes for her behavior with the baby, but as Zoe became more active/mobile, Nala's tendencies to lash out at children returned. We found ourselves no longer able to trust her around our little girl. Then, over the past week, the old troubles we struggled with 3 years ago when she was so sick seemed to return. And so, BJ and I made the heartbreaking decision to put her down.

She was 11 years old. She'd escaped death more times than could be counted. In fact, she was very like a cat in that way. She was the most amazingly precocious dog and I loved her incredibly. But, we knew that, given her age and temperament, she would not make the adjustment to living somewhere else. Part of what was so difficult in making the decision was that it was like choosing between our children. The house is incredibly empty today--normally, when Zoe would be napping, it would be scruff rub time.

I hope wherever she is now, she has vast fields of bunnies to run and hunt in and someone to rub her pits before going to bed. We miss you, Cha-Nala.

Tuesday, July 25, 2006

Spam-a-lot

Ugh. Last night, I was going back through the archives putting together Zoe's baby book. It's awesome I've already done almost all the work for myself! Anyway, I noticed all this random comment spam. Dagnabbit! Completely random. As in, new comments on posts that were months old. That's successful comment-spamming.

Ah well. Guess it had to happen sometime. Darn internet.

Wednesday, July 19, 2006

She Eats

Well, despite the fact that she hasn't yet had her 4-month check-up (hello, calendar wonkiness: she's 16-weeks-old, but her birthdate was the 27th so she doesn't have her check-up until she's 19 weeks!) we've started Zoe on solids. We kind of got started unintentionally last Thursday. I was eating some yummy mango sorbet (thanks, Rhianna!) with Zoe on my lap and she was quite fascinated. So, my mom says, "Why don't you give her some?" I mean, it was, after all, just fresh (really sweet) mango, ice, and a little sugar. We warmed some and let her try. She loved it! She ate it all, quite skillfully in fact, and wanted more. Well, I had to make sure she didn't have an allergic reaction, even delayed, so I kept feeding a little to her all weekend.

Now, I do technically have the OK of our pediatrician. He told us at her 2-month that he wanted her to start cereal at her 4-month. And, according to my Super Baby Food book, she's got nearly all the indicators that she's ready for solids: doubled her birth weight, stopped sleeping through the night, nurses 8-10 times/day and wants more, lost the extrusion reflex, has head/neck control, and sits with support. So, see? No problem!

It is so cute to watch her eat! When I first put her in her highchair on Monday, she saw the bowl and got so excited. She was bouncing in her seat, flailing her arms! She does a huge mouth when the spoon comes near, and eagerly gulps down everything I give her. After her meal yesterday (rice cereal, day 2), she took a 4-hour nap! She's never napped that long. Ah, glorious food!
Open wide!
Mmm, pretty good . . .
Get every last drop
All done!
And, yeah--I'm a major dork who is making her own baby food. I've already got mashed bananas and mashed avocado frozen in 1-Tbs. chunks. The sweet potatoes are boiling as we speak.

Tuesday, July 18, 2006

Where've you been?

Huh?

Yes, we returned from Branson on July 5th. Yes, it is now July 18th. That's 13 days with nothing but a brief post on Zoe laughing. At this point, all I can say is:
  • Vacation is a little bit different when you have a baby. If you must travel with an infant, have built-in babysitters for a little R&R time.
  • We did take lots of pictures. They're on Flickr, in case you haven't seen them yet.
  • Zoe charmed the pants off everyone, of course!

We've also had a few other events: we went to Ravinia with Rob & Rhianna to see the Chicago Symphony Orchestra (Mozart piano concerti), BJ went to Sedona, AZ for his friend Jack's wedding (I was all on my own for 5 days! Now do you see why no posts?), and I took Rhianna and Rob to Ravinia once more for their Gershwin Gala (CSO doing Rhapsody in Blue--need I say more?). It's been busy! I'll work on getting back to regularity in the next few days . . . Stay tuned!

Thursday, July 06, 2006

Again!

As an update to the last post:

I totally made Zoe chuckle this afternoon. It has now become my mission to make this girl laugh. Too bad she doesn't seem to be ticklish . . .

Tee hee!

She laughs! First true giggle: Friday, June 30, 2006. I was changing Zoe's diaper late in the day Friday, while BJ hovered. I reached down to get the box of wipes as he's "talking" to her (or something) and she lets out the most adorable giggle. Neither or us have any idea what he did, but we did the typical parent thing: "What'd you do?" "I don't know!" "Well, do it again!"

I am so in love.